I had dinner last night with my good friend and her new husband. Love is alive and well. I have been single now for 12 years. I have climbed mountains, stood on the shores of foriegn oceans, roamed the streets of Memphis looking for Elvis. I have had enough of "me" time. I do not need to hide in the cloak of feminism; I want to belong to my man, wherever, whoever you are. Yes, I want to be able to say, with joy, pride, and humility, "my husband" when I talk to my friends/family. I want to take the rest of life's journey with my soul mate, my lover and best friend.
I had dinner last night with my good friend and her new husband. Love is alive and well. I have been single now for 12 years. I have climbed mountains, stood on the shores of foriegn oceans, roamed the streets of Memphis looking for Elvis. I have had enough of "me" time. I do not need to hide in the cloak of feminism; I want to belong to my man, wherever, whoever you are. Yes, I want to be able to say, with joy, pride, and humility, "my husband" when I talk to my friends/family. I want to take the rest of life's journey with my soul mate, my lover and best friend.
Do you ever read what you wrote & think what was I thinking....Well this isn't that time. I got to spend the weekend with my Brothers & our family's, Sometimes you get wrapped up in the day to day & forget about what moves you. My Brother Matt has been married for 17 years to a little gem of a girl who still has him leaning in to her & no it's not because he's 6'4 & shes 5'2 although for our family it's all been one joke or another...But they find Joy in each other , It is really wonderful to see....& Then my baby Bro...Not always lucky with the Women he chooses & yet more loving ,Loyal & Honest a guy you couldn't meet....They make me proud & spoil me for other men, Not because they are perfect. Far from it...But because they know how to express there love....Needed to share, May 2007 give us all what we deserve......
Do you ever read what you wrote & think what was I thinking....Well this isn't that time. I got to spend the weekend with my Brothers & our family's, Sometimes you get wrapped up in the day to day & forget about what moves you. My Brother Matt has been married for 17 years to a little gem of a girl who still has him leaning in to her & no it's not because he's 6'4 & shes 5'2 although for our family it's all been one joke or another...But they find Joy in each other , It is really wonderful to see....& Then my baby Bro...Not always lucky with the Women he chooses & yet more loving ,Loyal & Honest a guy you couldn't meet....They make me proud & spoil me for other men, Not because they are perfect. Far from it...But because they know how to express there love....Needed to share, May 2007 give us all what we deserve......
I am looking forward to hearing about your travels. After reading your blog it got me thinking. I am really happy with my life, But do feel lonely sometimes. Looking at friends that have found that someone, makes me happy & sometimes jealous if I am honest. I love to see a man open doors for his lover. Lean in when they talk. Share secret smiles, Laugh at inside jokes. I think if we are all honest we have to admit to wanting that connection with someone else. I am a firm believer that you partner should make you want to be better than you are. I will probably be shot for saying this & I have to prefix this with a statement that I am a strong minded & independent women . But my belief is that feminism has backfired on us. We are all so confused about what our rolls should be & the rules of engagement that all of it can seem like the proverbial mountain. & yet when I see those people on the street who reach out to brush against there lover or share laughter. I know their is hope & it's eternal. Hang in there I am a firm believer that anything is possible.
I am looking forward to hearing about your travels. After reading your blog it got me thinking. I am really happy with my life, But do feel lonely sometimes. Looking at friends that have found that someone, makes me happy & sometimes jealous if I am honest. I love to see a man open doors for his lover. Lean in when they talk. Share secret smiles, Laugh at inside jokes. I think if we are all honest we have to admit to wanting that connection with someone else. I am a firm believer that you partner should make you want to be better than you are. I will probably be shot for saying this & I have to prefix this with a statement that I am a strong minded & independent women . But my belief is that feminism has backfired on us. We are all so confused about what our rolls should be & the rules of engagement that all of it can seem like the proverbial mountain. & yet when I see those people on the street who reach out to brush against there lover or share laughter. I know their is hope & it's eternal. Hang in there I am a firm believer that anything is possible.
